I miss him...

I find myself missing Aiden at very random times. It doesn't give any warning. It doesn't ask in advance. It just hits like a ton of bricks. Today is one of those days. I miss him like crazy and wish that I could hold him one more time.

Today I went out to the cemetary where he was laid to rest. We ordered his headstone almost 2 months ago. The cemetary is supposed to notify us when it is in....however we still haven't heard anything. So, I took a drive to spend my lunch with my son. As I drove in I saw all kinds of beautiful flowers marking the spot of loved ones. I wish I could put out flowers, but I have to wait until his headstone is there. As I approached I realized that his was still missing. I sat and spent time with him. I picked away at the grass around his marker. I straighted it. I yearned to be able to touch him.

I miss you like crazy little man! Mama loves you!